Feeling Hopeless??? The Lord is there:)

All glories to Lord Krishna!!!

Dear wonderful people out there, first of all I want to tell you that each one of you are beautiful creation of the Lord. Yes each and every one of you. You are all amazing, wonderful and lovely. As I have said in my previous post you guys are the greatest blessings of the Lord in my life. So today I don’t know but I just want to tell you guys something.

Well ok… let me start by telling you guys I quit my job recently without having another one in hand because of various reasons that I don’t want to get into. I was depressed because of that. A lot and I have confided it to some people and even went for counseling too and some devotees also helped me a lot. I also had this music teacher whom I call sir and who is more like a family to me and I am very close to him and more closer to his older brother whom I called as dodappa meaning big dad. I wanted to confide in them about this depression thing too. I just wanted it to come out, rant it out to anyone because I felt better. But they were off on a road trip my music teacher n dodappa and their families so I was just waiting for them to come back.

And 3 days back I suddenly receive this horrible news that they had met with an accident on d way back home. My beloved dodappa was killed along with another lady a relative of theirs. Sir and others were injured and sir’s father is still in a critical state. Well now I was looking for some kind of solace from them but now tables turned. I can never forget that feeling. I went to pay my last respects to them well I can never forget dodappa’s lifeless body lying there, never forget how sir held my hand and cried. I just could not… In the mean time I began to forget my problems. Now it was sir who was crying out to me in a shock. But I noticed how the mere presence of his students there comforted him. I did not know what to say but just the fact I held his hand gave him some peace.

I have visited sir every day after that, sat next to him, spoke to him. Well for the first time in the world I felt thankful I quit job or else I could not meet sir everyday nor could I have seen dodappa for last time nor would I have seen the broader picture. Sir kept telling the details on how accident happened and honestly all the while I felt it was all premeditated. Destined to happen that’s what I felt. And dodappa did not have a single major injury. He was unhurt miraculously but he had died of heart attack as a result of shock. Well and the other lady she had just emerged victorious after fighting a life threatening cancer. But destiny willed otherwise.

Whatever I realized nothing is under our control. I felt we were all puppets in the lord’s play. Dear readers. Today I want to tell u something. As I said before I saw how sir felt better when he brought out the feelings that were eating him up. Dearest devotees I realize sometimes everyone undergoes something and you just want to bring that feeling out you want to ramble to someone. The lord is the best person you can ramble to but I know sometimes we seek replies but the lord gives his replies at the right time and no prayers will go unanswered for sure. I too know that but sometimes due to my own ignorance I get bogged down and sometimes my own faith is on a verge of being lost. But wonderful devotees like you have restored my faith. I would want to thank each one of you personally. I really mean it that this connection was not accidental. It was Krishna. He knew I needed valuable people like you guys in my life and you guys are the blessings I received from God.

At the same time dear readers, there may be people out there who are undergoing things similar to what  underwent and am still undergoing and sometimes things a lot more worse than me. But any time please don’t lose faith. Trust me. Whatever is happening is happening for your good. Trust the process. Trust the Lord and surrender to his well.

And if you need someone to restore your faith, or you need someone to pour out your heart to, I am available. Few months back I found this one person a devotee who said the same to me (my angel) and you guys can’t believe I don’t even tell my parents anything (because they are not devotees) but to my angel I tell everything. Devotees always manage to convince me because of that Krishna factor. And now I have found more angels who comment on my posts and who have always made me feel better. Thank you to each one of them personally.

And yes my email Id is visible on my blog and anyway I will mention it here too its krishnasoul8@gmail.com You guys can contact me through it any time you are feeling low or you feel your faith is being tested. Even if you are happy too you are free to talk. And I will try my best to restore your faith. I am nowhere close to being good or a perfect devotee but I will try my best to restore your faithJ by the Lord’s will and grace. Thank you everybody and love you all. Jai Shri Krishna!!