Krishna we need you...

Krishna is there really something called as free will? I really don’t know. And I don’t think so. Because when I look at my life, right now whatever is going on and whatever has happened in the past, everything seems to be happening in the manner I least expected. Krishna, I am ignorant of the spiritual knowledge. I don’t have much knowledge about scriptures either. Well I know, I am not qualified enough to understand them too. And even a little bit of what I know, I am not able to apply the same in my life.

Krishna it is so hard. I just feel so disheartened sometimes. Mind is so difficult to control. I lose hope almost every day but there is something about you that I don’t give up trying either. There are days especially when I am at home that I constantly think of you but once I am drowned in worldly matters, job etc I completely forget you. As a result I am stressed, tensed and I am always trying to control the situations and that only adds to the stress. Krishna why have you made yourself so hard to obtain. When Arjuna was in distress you personally spoke to him and showed him the right way. How I wish you were personally present here to tell me - "look this is right and this is wrong" because almost every day I am faced with several situations where I don’t know what to do. I miss you so much those times Krishna and I yearn for you. I wish you would speak to me and guide me on what is right and wrong but no… I am left to decide all alone.

Krishna they say you are always there to guide us. But why don’t I hear you? I speak to you, I beg for answers but still I don’t hear you or see you. Forget real life. It’s so hard to see you even in dreams. Krishna I don’t know how to be detached from worldly matters. All your instructions in Bhagvad Gita they seem so easy but they are so tough, so difficult to follow. Ultimately you ask us to surrender to you. Seems easy? Yes.. But is it really that easy? Krishna, I have to admit this, I am so poor at knowledge I don’t even know what is meant by surrender. I don’t even know how to do it.

All I know is Krishna, I need you. I feel stuck. All I want is to just be with you and serve you always. But in this world everything is just pulling me away from you. The more I try to reach you the more and more difficult it is getting. Krishna I really need you to guide me. I can’t do this alone. I really can’t!! And please, I am sure there are a lot of people who need you right now. I know some are even shedding tears for you every day. I can feel their pain of separation from you. It’s very depressing Krishna.  Krishna don’t be so indifferent. You do understand what we are going through. Don’t you? Then why are you still silent Kanha. Please bless them with your merciful glance. Please bless them with your divine grace. Lead them. Comfort them. Who else will save us from the worldly pangs if not you? 

We are completely dependent on you Krishna. Please please liberate us from this suffering. Please help us Krishna. They say you are an ocean of mercy. All I am begging for is a 'drop' of your mercy. We need you Krishna. Please help us.