Saturday, 27 August 2016

Janmashtami at Home 2016

जय श्री कृष्णा  



 When the time is 12:25am-Ashtami-Rohini nakshatra, this lil one is born!
To the one who is beyond worldly parameters of birth, we celebrate Janmashtami...strange are the ways of Krishna   
 






Tuesday, 14 June 2016

Lost in life..

Kanha this is too much.. after struggling continuously with depression for a past few months now I am trying to come out of it.. but I keep falling in and out of it. But I seriously… Just lost in life.. It seems vague and meaningless. And all these months I was feeling suicidal.. I am really surprised I am even alive right now and I did not kill myself.

Those suicidal thoughts were absolute hell. I was taken to a famous psychiatrist but all he did was write some tablets for depression and give and give me a lecture on how I was doing some things wrong and.. well I don’t even want to mention it here.. I was so so sad after hearing his words..i felt worthless.. my depression only intensified.. he did not even hear me speak.. I realized what a stupid world I am living in where people just jump into conclusions.. where u r not allowed to follow your heart instead conform to the norms of the society.. I cried badly after coming home.. I yelled and refused to take the tablets. I decided to fight it all alone..

The feelings of depression were debilitating.. I Just could not concentrate on any work.. even things I loved I did not love anymore..I just could not do anything.. And you Krishna. I started questioning your existence. N then these suicidal thoughts.. I remember how once those feelings almost overpowered me. I was all alone at home and I had this huge urge to end it all. I knew I had to speak to someone soon. I called one of my friends and she did not pick up. I called another and she was busy and she told me she would call later.. I called yet another and she said some words but it did not help coz she drifted from the topic to her life. I remember that dreadful feeling where this emotion had overpowered me.. it was like a demon who possessed me and was forcing me to take my own life. I yelled and started crying .. there was this little voice inside telling me I will never get Kanha if I Kill myself. As a last resort I put out a message in the social media that I am feeling suicidal and one kind soul sent me a video to watch after seeing which I felt better.

Back to present things have not changed .. only thing is the intensity of depression has decreased and I am able to function now and I keep falling in and out of depression mostly coz sometimes people speak some things. But Krishna I am lost in life. I don’t even know why I was sent here.. for what.. everything seems empty… I feel like an alien,, I feel like i dont fit into this world.. I dont belong here..I feel its all ..meaningless what not.. when will I realize the meaning Kanha.. when will I finally realize things… I am lost..Who am I..Why am I here..What should I do…I just don’t know…I don’t…And you have abandoned me…Krishna...


Saturday, 27 February 2016

108 Names of Lord Krishna with Meaning



NAME
MEANING
1.
Achala
Still Lord
2.
Achyuta
Infallible Lord
3.
Adbhutah
Wonderful God
4.
Adidev
The Lord Of The Lords
5.
Aditya
The Son Of Aditi
6.
Ajanma
One Who Is Unborn
7. 
Ajaya
The Conqueror Of Life And Death
8.
Akshara
Indestructible Lord
9.
Amrut
One Who Is Sweet As Nectar
10.
Anaadih
One Who Is The First Cause
11.
Anandsagar
Compassionate Lord
12.
Ananta
The Endless Lord
13.
Anantajit
Ever Victorious Lord
14.
Anaya
One Who Has No Leader
16.
Aniruddha
One Who Cannot Be Obstructed
16.
Aparajeet
The Lord Who Cannot Be Defeated
17.
Avyukta
One Who Is As Clear As Crystal
18.
Balgopal
The Child Krishna, The All Attractive
19.
Bali
The Lord Of Strength
20.
Chaturbhuj
Four-Armed Lord
21.
Danavendra
Granter Of Boons
22.
Dayalu
Repositiory Of Compassion
23.
Dayanidhi
The Compassionate Lord
24.
Devadidev
The God Of The Gods
25.
Devakinandan
Son Of Mother Devaki
26.
Devesh
Lord Of The Lords
27.
Dharmadhyaksha
The Lord OF Dharma
28.
Dwarkapati
Lord Of Dwarka
29.
Gopal
One Who Plays With The Cowherds, The Gopas
30.
Gopalpriya
Lover Of Cowherds
31.
Govinda
One Who Pleases The Cows, The Land And The Entire Nature
32.
Gyaneshwar
The Lord Of Knowledge
33.
Hari
The Lord Of Nature
34.
Hiranyagarbha
The All Powerful Creator
35.
Hrishikesh
The Lord Of All Senses
36.
Jagadguru
Preceptor Of The Universe
37.
Jagadisha
Protector Of All
38.
Jagannath
Lord Of The Universe
39.
Janardhana
One Who Bestows Boons On One And All
40.
Jayantah
Conqueror Of All Enemies
41.
Jyotiraaditya
The Resplendence Of The Sun
42.
Kamalnath
The Lord Of Goddess Lakshmi
43.
Kamalnayan
The Lord With Lotus Shaped Eyes
44.
Kamsantak
Slayer Of Kamsa
45.
Kanjalochana
The Lotus-Eyed God
46
Keshava
One Who Has Long, Black Matted Locks
47.
Krishna
Dark-Complexioned Lord
48.
Lakshmikantam
The Lord Of Goddess Lakshmi
49.
Lokadhyaksha
Lord Of All The Three Lokas (Worlds)
50.
Madan
The Lord Of Love
51.
Madhava
Knowledge Filled God
52.
Madhusudan
Slayer Of Demon Madhu
53.
Mahendra
Lord Of Indra
54.
Manmohan
All Pleasing Lord
55.
Manohar
Beautiful Lord
56.
Mayur
The Lord Who Has A Peacock Feathered-Crest
57.
Mohan
All Attractive God
58.
Murali
The Flute Playing Lord
59.
Murlidhar
Murlidhar One Who Holds The Flute
60.
Murlimanohar
Murlimanohar The Flute Playing God
61.
Nandgopala
 The Son Of Nand
62.
Narayana
The Refuge Of Everyone
63.
Niranjana
The Unblemished Lord
64.
Nirguna
Without Any Properties
65.
Padmahasta
One Who Has Hands Like Lotus
66.
Padmanabha
The Lord Who Has A Lotus Shaped Navel
67.
Parabrahmana
The Supreme Absolute Truth
68.
Paramatma
Lord Of All Beings
69.
Parampurush
Supreme Personality
70.
Parthasarthi
Charioteer Of Partha - Arjuna
71.
Prajapati
Lord Of All Creatures
72.
Punyah
Supremely Pure
73.
Purshottam
The Supreme Soul
74.
Ravilochana
One Who Eye Is The Sun
75.
Sahasraakash
Thousand-Eyed Lord
76.
Sahasrajit
One Who Vanquishes Thousands
77.
Sahasrapaat
Thousand-Footed Lord
78.
Sakshi
All Witnessing Lord
79.
Sanatana
The Eternal Lord
80.
Sarvajana
Omniscient Lord
81.
Sarvapalaka
Protector Of All
82.
Sarveshwar
Lord Of All Gods
83.
Satyavachana
One Who Speaks Only The Truth
84.
Satyavrata
The Truth Dedicated Lord
85.
Shantah
Peaceful Lord
86.
Shreshta
The Most Glorious Lord
87.
Shrikanta
Beautiful Lord
88.
Shyam
Dark-Complexioned Lord
89.
Shyamsundara
Lord Of The Beautiful Evenings
90.
Sudarshana
Handsome Lord
91.
Sumedha
Intelligent Lord
92.
Suresham
Lord Of All Demi-Gods
93.
Swargapati
Lord Of Heavens
94.
Trivikrama
Conqueror Of All The Three Worlds
Upendra
95.
Upendra
Brother Of Indra
96.
Vaikunthanatha
Lord Of Vaikuntha, The Heavenly Abode
97.
Vardhamaanah
The Formless Lord
98.
Vasudev
All Prevailing Lord
99.
Vishnu
All Prevailing Lord
100.
Vishwadakshinah
Skilfull And Efficient Lord
101.
Vishwakarma
Creator Of The Universe
102. 
Vishwamurti
The Form Of The Entire Universe
103.
Vishwarupa
One Who Displays The Universal Form
104.
Vishwatma
Soul Of The Universe
105.
Vrishaparvaa
Lord Of Dharma
106.
Yadavendra
King Of The Yadav Clan
107.
Yogi
The Supreme Master
108.
Yoginampati
Lord Of The Yogis